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| Look who's back, bitches.
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| Looks like I am close to getting an offer from a firm I interviewed with recently. The interviews went well and they even said the interviews was more about selling me on them rather than the other way around. I am going back Friday to meet with 2 partners I didn't get to speak with last week and an associate who is someone I know because he interviewed me at another firm.
I feel confident so far (but I'm trying not to get my hopes up and just take it one day at a time) that an offer will come next week, but every day is still a struggle because I go into "work" and have to be at a place that fucked me over and continues to do so. I try not let on about my depair while at work, but some people, especially my secretary, has to be catching on.
On one hand, it's all about "Keeping Up Appearances." OTOH, I want them (not associates, but my secretary and the like) to see the change in me and realize that something is wrong. I'm usually an energetic positive person who is always full of enthusiasm. People know PSCESQ = passion, and I haven't been bringin' it since late August. Without me saying anything, I hope people realize something is wrong and that it is connected to work, not my personal life.
I'm trying to get over the shit that has happened at my current firm but it is tough. I want to be here and be happy. Instead I'll be gone soon and left to see if I'll be happy at my next place. I certainly won't be as happy with the money, but money isn't everything. OTOH, I won't get a bonus before I leave and I feel like I deserve the bonus and this year it is going to be extraordinarily huge. And I could really use that money, for savings and all.
The last few days and I've been feeling my pain physically and have had the urge to "have a drink." I am trying to resist this urge because you shouldn't drink to escape your misery. My misery will not go away by getting wasted. It will go away when I get a new job and make the most of it by becoming a superstar and rewarded as such.
One thing I hope is that I have the chance to show former and soon to be former employers what they missed out on. Perhaps I should let that motivate me to not only do well, but take opportunities to speak and teach classes. I'd love to see the look on their faces when they see that I am a superstar and they could have retained me had they treated me better. Bwahahahahahahaha.
But first things first: I need to secure a new opportunity so I can do all this.
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| I don't usually post on this blog anymore, but considering I still have some anonymity here, it's okay (Too many people are aware of my myspace blog to discuss certain things).
The last time I posted here (in a post I deleted today) I mentioned that I wasn't doing much real work, but getting paid, so I was relatively happy. BUT I said that it doesn't help my career to not be doing enough real work.
Over the past few months I got more and more tired of relatively little work and have noticed what appears to be favoritism towards other people at my level. Basically the writing on the wall is that I need to leave or I'll get forced out. This is nothing new for the world of big law firms, but it's not a feeling I enjoy over me. Especially considering for most of the time here, I was dedicated to this firm, and I thought the firm was dedicated to me. Apparently not so.
So I'm looking for another job. A place that will give me lots of real work and give me a chance to show I am partnership material. At first I couldn't believe I was attempting to make this move, but as time passes (About a month so far) I grow more and more distant from my current firm.
I just wish I had let the lack of work get to me more. But no, silly PSCESQ, I loved getting paychecks for not doing much and figured that "any day" I'll be super busy and continue to be super busy for several years.
What really sucks is that at my current place of employ I love the people there, enjoy the comraderie, social events, etc. Satan's firm in KC this is not. Sometimes I shudder to think of the chances I will enjoy my next job when it comes to this shit as much.
Of course, career is first. I didn't go into law so I could let my career go to waste while I have fun. I went into law to become a superstar litigator and trial lawyer. And that's not going to happen at my current firm. In fact, much of 2007 has been a waste in terms of reaching this goal of mine. And if you know me, you know I hate to waste time. That's why I graduated college early (With plans implemented in my soph year of HS), finished law school in the regular time and was an attorney at age 24. At the time I hoped to be a partner somewhere at age 31-32. Now I might have to push that back to 33-34, but who knows. (I'm 28 now btw)
One positive effect of all of this is that this situation caused the misses and I to analyze our finances. Honestly we've been spending lots of money since I got this job. I should have $100k (or more) in savings, but I'm nowhere near that at all. Not even close. And it's because I never implemented a strategy towards savings and tried to live below our means. Now we are doing that and it's great. We live off $30-40/week groceries, limit the times we eat out (To practically none, and when we splurge, it's McD's Dollar Menu), and don't spend money at all besides the necessities. We are putting one paycheck per month in savings which I first thought would be tough because that's 50% monthly take-home for me, but honestly there was no reason we couldn't live off one paycheck for the whole month. We even figured out that we'd even have money to spend freely (everyone should a lot themselves this so their complete life isn't all about sacrifices), but we are holding off on making any of these expenses (HD-DVD's, Blu Rays, Video Games, etc) until I have a new job just in case I get forced out literally and need this savings to live off of for a few months. In fact we have cut down a lot, cut down cable TV, negotiated with Comcast for cheaper cable internet service, reduced my Canadian TV package (again I don't need this, but I like it too much!), etc.
So anyways right now my life is (once again god fucking damn it) all about interviews, offers, and this time, headhunting scum and it sucks. Each day the only motivation to get out of bed is to check e-mail to see if my headhunter got me an interview or an offer or something like that. I am checking e-mail and reading about jobs all day. If I don't hear from the headhunting bastard in 3-4 days, I get on his case because I want a job that will make me happy career-wise ASAP. It's crappy because the HH and law firms you are trying to get a job at aren't on your schedule, i.e. they aren't scheduling interviews asap and not making hiring decisions in a day like I would like.. In fact if they knew you were desperate they would be suspicious and not extend an offer. The goal right now is to at least get one offer, but of course 2 or more (which I've never had in my legal career yet) would be nice so I can make comparisons.
Wish me luck.
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| Damn I went hella months without even logging into this bitch!
Well here I am again. Months later, but the shit is da same.
Of course I am enjoying those Season Tickets I was talkin' about, except these two buffoons who sit behind us and it seems like they are yelling in our ear every game. That plus not having an ideal line of sight for watching the game. But it's still fun.
Work is going well, but it is not terribly busy at the moment. Of course the year just started and I billed about 2050 hours last year (that is only billable time, not non-billable work like attending required CLE seminars and administrative stuff), so I feel like I deserve the down time.
Monday I'll make it known that I have free time, and by this time next week, I could be uber busy.
So that is why I am taking the time to write a XANGA blog entry.
First off, 2006 is over. The best films, imho: BRICK and HARD CANDY. If you haven't seem them, you are missing out and need to check it out.
It used to be that even years sucked for me, but odd years ruled. For example '00 sucked because the best I could do for law school was UMKC, got into a bad relationship with bitch named Nicole, and my law school grades suffered
'01 was better cuz grades improved and I met the misses
'02 sucked cuz we got burglarized in our apt in Grandview and essentially lost everything
'03 rocked cuz I graduated, got married, had my first job, and bought my first new car
'04 sucked cuz I lost (or some could say threw away) that shitty job at Satan's firm
'05 ruled although the first 5 months sucked cuz I came back home, got the new kickass job, and the misses moved here in August.
Now that '06 was a good year the rule is broken and I hope all my "years" forthcoming are awesome.
I hope everyone else has a good 2007 as well. If that is my way of saying Happy New Year, then so be it.
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| So last night I went to the Select-A-Seat Event at HP Pavilion for my season tickets for the '06-07 San Jose Sharks season. We were really excited because these are our first season tix. At this event, all available seats were clearly marked and we got to run around in the arena and choose seats.
GOOD NEWS: My wife and I wanted to have club seats. This means you get full access to the Sharks Club Level, much like the Giants club level. There are special concession stands, bars, seating areas, and bathrooms for the club level only. My friends have experienced this and love it.
We got lower bowl...club...center ice (Section 101)...row 4...2 rows behind the Visitor's Bench (my friend Eddie will love that cuz he'll probably heckle the opposing players)...aisle seats...what more can you ask for??
Read on...
BAD NEWS: Well there is a reason these seats were available when hardly any other club seats were still left...they are considered "obstructed view" seats...the row directly behind the bench and our row are so close to being behind a bench that the players, coaches, and their sticks may obstruct your view of the game. The Ticket reps on site went out of their way to talk us out of it, but I don't care. I love being so close to the action, plus there is a coolness factor when you take people other than the misses (like Eddie, Remy, and hopefully Nato/Carlos), but also being so close to the ice means you can jack up your price even more when you sell them on stubhub. Our price for the tix is $94 a piece, the regular price is $101, and now on stubhub we have already seen comparable seats with this obstructed view asking for $200-400/each, depending on the opponent. Say the Red Wings are in town and someone will give $400 a pop. That's $800 for the pair, when we only spend $188 for the pair. Not that we will sell our tix for every game (not even close), but if you could get that kind of money every game and sold all your tix, you'd make $25,000. That doesn't consider playoffs where your profit margins are higher.
These aren't the seats we want for the rest of our lives, but they will suffice this season. We already knew going in that it could take several season of being a season ticket holder before we get the seats we want, and then once we are content, we keep those for life, and hopefully pass it down to our future kids. Hopefully we can move to somewhere else in the club section next season.
One more thing: The misses and I won't be going to every game, and we won't be selling every game. I'd love the chance to take peeps or even give away a pair. If I don't already know you would be interested, but you are and are a friend of mine, lemme know so I'll know to ask you when the misses can't go. If you are dumbfuck hockey hater, just ignore this. I don't want to hear from the ignorant. | | |
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